creative urge...

"See though.. "

Creative urge.. I guess we all have them sometimes.. just want to make something fun and interesting.. a painting.. a poem.. music.. food.. a blog post... a piece of code.. scientific idea.. and it doesn't go away till we do it.. just goes on in the head.. feel the need to get it out..

Today it was this necklace for me.. learnt how to knot last week.. and today suddenly I wanted to knot these beads.. couldnt do anything till I finished them.. its a pretty necklace.. dont know if I will wear it sometime.. but I enjoyed making it.. I enjoy making jewellery more than wearing them.. also owning pieces.. sometimes I see something and just want it.. even though I probably would never wear it.. like my mom says.. I have an 'akrantham' (craving) for jewellery.. this one.. again I had the bead for ages.. and this way I like it.. the beads are beautiful.. specially with the light going thru them.. the colors.. the transparency.. :)... also what I liked in my earlier pic with the waitress.. the drinks on her tray were see-though..

talking about creative urges... I was recently searching for a new proj and talked to a few people.. but I have time to do only 1 more coz I already have 2 more to finish.. and I liked 2 projects.. :D... then I decided to take the one from which I would learn more.. a slightly different topic that the one I am currently working on.. but then the other proj I heard about set me thinking.. I got stuck in my head.. after after I decided what I wanted to do.. this proj didnt get out of my head.. and I can feel it going on in my head.. :D.. like a background process.. anyway.. finally told myself that I can work on it may be after a few months.. :D.. its a bit like cheating myself.. to stop myself thinking.. but I have to say I do enjoy it.. thats one of the fun things about doing research..

today read an article about a guy quitting his research (http://blog.devicerandom.org/2011/02/18/getting-a-life/).. seems like he finshed his phd at cambridge.. and was quitting coz he did like the science but not the problems with the lifestyle.. bad pay.. shiffting jobs every few years.. and the cut throat competion.. he also had a link to an article in the economic times which said that it was not worth getting a phd.. considering the number of job u get after doing that and the mild increase in pay than a masters student.. quite true... its really hard to get a postdoc.. even harder to get a tenured position.. the competition is fierce... no stability in the job.. but the stimulation in ur brain.. which u get during the research.. hard to get outside..ok.. not all the time.. probably only a few weeks a year. a nice conference.. or a summer school.. but its all worth it for me... all the frustration.. of course different people want different things.. and now I understand it is good.. lesser competition.. ;)... well I do feel bad thinking that way... but that how life is.. natural selection..

to get something.. one has to fight.. persistence pays.. depends on what you want and how much you want it.. and competition.. being Indian.. I used to it.. one has to compete for everything.. so might as well hv fun too.. :)..